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Feeling hopeless | January 17, 2021
I fall into depression every few weeks. Most of the times.I have reasons from my life and sometimes I see no reason. I don't care what I did not do and how much I should do, I am tired of doing this for a decade of my life. I believe I am a kind of person who troes all options and just like everything I have done many things to feel better. I wont say my life is absoluted bullshit because it is not. I have had good moments. But the fact that I have depression and it does not leave me no matter how much I try hurts me. I am slowing down on trying and i feel as if i am submitting to this dark demon that destroyed my life. I am 26 and I feel 26 eternities of pain live in my mind when my depression begins. I survive on constant family help and on therapy every week. With therapy my life has improved in many aspects but I still get depression every now and then and I cant accept this fact anymore. I am at a point when giving up does not feel wrong and I feel like slapping those who ask me to try more and more. But yes, i am up for a laugh or a humorous comment on this post if anyone is reading this. I am not looking for sympathy. I need help in the form of humor. Help me if you can. I can't laugh or feel much.

John Victor
May 10, 2021 0 0

You deserve a huge appreciation, not sympathy.

As you said, you are fighting for a decade and trying all options to stay above depression. You must have a huge amount of courage and self-belief to try till now. 

Yes, humor definitely works; you could probably try watching Didi's, Comedy Show. You might like it.

C Lavanya Iyer
January 18, 2021 0 3

Hi,
Immense courage you have shown in expressing what you are going through.
You have brought out the interesting aspect of 'humour'. The experience of humour is considered vital in maintaining physical and psychological wellbeing. Humour also has different forms like positive and negative humour. Studies suggest that positive humour plays an important role in emotional regulation, it also instills a feeling of reward and achievement. Positively oriented humour is also beneficial in reducing emotional distress. This includes humour that have praise, appreciation, playfulness and are self enhancing. Using positive humour also helps in strengthening relationships.
Depression does alter the way one perceives emotions. Having said this, I have a few suggestions: Find out what really tickles your funny bones; even if that matches up to 5% of your expectation, keep a note of that. Try finding happiness in small day to day activities like seeing a bird fly with it's family. Humour can be short lived, but content and happiness stay on with us. Try learning something completely new that might interest you and see the joy in that. It is a popular belief that we can seek humour from the memes on the social media, but more often not, it doesn't quite help us.
But most importantly, please continue with your therapy and medication. Hope you find lasting bliss :)